How to hold this longing?

by Kieu Bich Hau

I wish to store all these tormented memories
in a secret box.
Hide it inside me,
so I can live normally

But every night it wakes me up
in a sweet, painful longing for you
Why are we together,
at the same time very far away?

I lull my heart every night,
pretend to see the sweetness in the lost proximity
in the lost kisses
the lost touches…

The regret of all those losses
Will it drown me in an ocean of misery?
The beauty of love
Will it burn away this heart?