Walking By The Place Where They Toss

By Linda Buckmaster

It’s at the back of the yard beyond where the lawn is mowed
and witchgrass grows beneath a brushy tangle of wan raspberry.
They dragged the tree out here after New Years, a few bits of color
still stuck to it, saying, we’ll have a winter bonfire later in the new
snow.
But time passed and the brown grass now waits for green,
and they talk instead of pushing the tree over the edge
to the beach below for a summer fire in a lingering twilight.

It’s that kind of place — where children of a certain age go to be
naughty
in the sweet fern, not knowing they could be seen from the
second story,
if anyone bothered to look. And later as a solitary adolescent, sit
in the fog
and gaze on what can be seen of the gray–faced bay and ponder
big questions
about small things. Where the husband goes after an argument to
smoke
a forbidden cigarette, wanting to think about the marriage, but
planning,
instead, repair of the wooden steps down to the beach. And
where she wanders
sometimes, wondering about the empty beer can and thinking,
we should clear this and plant a nice row of rosa rogosas.

But now spring pushes and heaves itself forward. The one–note
tune of peep frogs
plaits the air. The tree lies on its side, and the spike where the
star once was
now points toward the horizon, the outer needles rusting with
age, but close
to the trunk still deep green, so that as you brush past, it lets out a
sharp cry of balsam.